to love again

isn’t easy

better than revenge

Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did. 

 The story starts when it was hot and it was Summer and I had it all I had him right there where I wanted him. She came along got him alone and let’s hear the applause she took him faster than you could say sabotage. 

I never saw it comin’ wouldn’t have suspected it. I underestimated just who I was dealing with. She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum. She underestimated just who she was stealing from. 

She’s not a saint and she’s not what you think. She’s an actress. Whoa. But she’s better known for the things that she does on the mattress. Whoa. Soon she’s gonna find stealing other people’s toys on the playground won’t make you many friends. She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge. 

She looks at life like it’s a party and she’s on the list. She looks at me like I’m a trend and she’s so over it. I think her ever-present frown is a little troubling and she thinks I’m psycho ‘cause I like to rhyme her name with things. 

But, sophistication isn’t what you wear or who you know. While pushing people down to get you where you want to go. They wouldn’t teach you that in prep-school so it’s up to me but no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity. 

(chorus) She’s not a saint and she’s not what you think. She’s an actress. Whoa. But she’s better known for the things that she does on the mattress. Whoa. Soon she’s gonna find stealing other people’s toys on the playground won’t make you many friends. She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge. 

I’m just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey. You might have him but haven’t you heard? I’m just another thing for you to roll your eyesat honey. You might have him, but I always get the last word. 

Whoa 

(chorus) She’s not a saint and she’s not what you think. She’s an actress. Whoa. But she’s better known for the things that she does on the mattress. Whoa. Soon she’s gonna find stealing other people’s toys on the playground won’t make you many friends. She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge. 

Do you still fee like you know what you’re doing? ‘Cause I don’t think you do. Oh, do you still feel like you know what you’re doing? I don’t think you do. 
I don’t think you do. Let’s hear the applause. Come on show me how much better you are. So need to see some applause. ‘Cause you’re so much better. 

She took him faster than you could say sabotage.

things to do before bed:

1. get college bag ready
2. decide what to wear for college
3. make my to do list/plan for the week
4. take off face mask
5. get a glass of water
6. brush teeth
7. face cream
8. tv
9. phonecall

my fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundations, and i know that i should let go

this is going to sound completely and utterly like i am a spoilt brat thats spitting out her dummy because i havent got what i wanted but i can assure you its only slightly like that. 

i waited so long for you to be mine and now ive got you im beginning to want to go back to my old life. ive always found it hard to adjust to relationships and other peoples ways of living, but mine and yours are of complete contrast! i’ve completely changed my way of life for you, and it seems if anything i just have to slot in yours behind all your other priorities and you fit me in between somehow.

i was brought up and was always told, if you are loved by someone they will do anything to put you first as its only what you deserve. now personally with you, i’ve never felt like your first priority, im merely just a cogg in the works or so it seems.

i dont know what to do, but with everything going on i need you here. the pressure of everything to do with you is beginning to take its toll.

is it time to get the running shoes on?

not meaning to sound at all big headed

but my ex has definitely downgraded!!

• ‘i can be the secret you don’t show.’
• ‘i was aware of the time slipping away so quickly, like the black road beneath us, and i was hideously afraid that i would never have chance to be with him so openly. give me that chance, i’ll prove too you i can be what you want. The world has little time for us dont let it fade away so soon, what we could have what we could create.’
• ‘Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you. ‘
• ‘in your arms, i know that i’m safe ‘cause i’ve never been held and i’ve never been kissed in this way.you’re all i’ll ever need. you give me strenth, you give me hope, you give me someone to love, someone to hold when i’m in your arms, i need you to know; i’ve never been, never been - this close.’
• ‘just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.’
• ‘if your a bird; i’m a bird.’
• ‘lips of your kisses are sticking like tape.’
• ‘so much i almost couldn’t breath.’
• ‘tie me around your heart.’
• ‘you’d think i was an organ donar,the way i gave my heart away.’
• ‘i can’t smell anything i’ve got a sore throat.’
• (leigh-ann looks at a picture of nelson mandela;’is that god?’
• ‘i’m in love with your honour,i’m in love with your cheek.’
• ‘absense making hearts fonder.’
• ‘this time baby,i’ll be bulletproof.’
• ‘3 words,8 letters,say it and i’m yours.’
• ‘if you read my mind you’d be in tears.’
• ‘i can be your shelter til it’s done.’
• ‘i’m falling & its your name i’m calling.’
• ‘you are my sunshine.’
• ‘you are one of the boys,kate.’
• ‘the veins of you,the blood of me.’
• ‘you’re in my bones.’
• ‘you’re the reason i love loosing sleep.’
• ‘i reach towards a hatch that opens on an endless sky to fall or fly.’
• ‘the line still feeding out,unreeling years between us.’
• ‘your polka dot dress blows round your legs,katie.’
• ‘feast on your life.’
• ‘where are you now?i am done with searching.’
• ‘i shred my skin and it goes. who is the love?’
• ‘i’m your biggest fan, i’ll follow you until you love me.’
• ‘the night starts here,forget your name,forget your fears.’
• ‘fear is the heart of love.’
• ‘jealousy will eat me alive.’
• ‘the world chewed her up and spat her out.’
• ‘no doubt in my mind where you belong.’
• ‘cradle to the grave, i know we’ll always misbehave.’
• ‘we’re pretty fucking liberal.’
• ‘you matter more than anyone and you always will.’